BUT HOPEFULLY THIS MAKES UP FOR MY DOWNTIME
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
don't hate me lol qq
This lack of a computer that can handle anything better than paint thing has left me really depressed and lacking energy. It means I can't draw, and without that, I feel like I'm missing something. I know it was only a box, but that box was part of who I am.
BUT HOPEFULLY THIS MAKES UP FOR MY DOWNTIME
BUT HOPEFULLY THIS MAKES UP FOR MY DOWNTIME
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Finding a Gem in a Compost Heap
So, I'm rooting through this old laptop, as it's the only thing that can still connect to the net. In all honesty, without my drawing software, I've been pretty depressed. I know I can always draw on paper, but seeing as I don't have a scanner, it feels different. I like sharing my art.
I tried asking my mother for a new computer, but she said "We can't afford that right now." What did she do not even a day later? She bought herself a brand new Droid X, worth hundreds of dollars. You can imagine that made me feel better.
At any rate, the only program I have is Paint.net. It's not horrible, but if you're used to Photoshop, it's a major step down. Even then, it lags something horrible because my mother left it out in the sun one too many times, so I can only use the standard Paint.
One of my friends asked for a banner done in Paint anyways, so I obliged them. As I went to save it, I noticed that the Pictures folder wasn't completely empty. Examining it, I found some YEARS old drawings I did for a different story. The quality surprised me-- while faces are COMPLETELY off, the bodies weren't exactly as bad. In fact, I think I got worse in drawing full bodies. Regardless, it was a call back to a time when I wasn't afraid of my skills, when I enjoyed drawing to the fullest. I didn't say I was the best, but I didn't hold back out of fear. It made me realize how far I've gone. I'm a much more timid person. I'm so worried about what others think of me. God, some of these drawings are bad, but at the same time, I can tell I had this naive pride in them. And a bit of it returned when I saw it.
I just thought I'd share them right now. I have no idea what they're supposed to say, as this part of the story was scrapped and it's completely different now. It's going to be a visual novel, not drawn by me, and I'm still writing it, but it's still a cute little look at my past.
I tried asking my mother for a new computer, but she said "We can't afford that right now." What did she do not even a day later? She bought herself a brand new Droid X, worth hundreds of dollars. You can imagine that made me feel better.
At any rate, the only program I have is Paint.net. It's not horrible, but if you're used to Photoshop, it's a major step down. Even then, it lags something horrible because my mother left it out in the sun one too many times, so I can only use the standard Paint.
One of my friends asked for a banner done in Paint anyways, so I obliged them. As I went to save it, I noticed that the Pictures folder wasn't completely empty. Examining it, I found some YEARS old drawings I did for a different story. The quality surprised me-- while faces are COMPLETELY off, the bodies weren't exactly as bad. In fact, I think I got worse in drawing full bodies. Regardless, it was a call back to a time when I wasn't afraid of my skills, when I enjoyed drawing to the fullest. I didn't say I was the best, but I didn't hold back out of fear. It made me realize how far I've gone. I'm a much more timid person. I'm so worried about what others think of me. God, some of these drawings are bad, but at the same time, I can tell I had this naive pride in them. And a bit of it returned when I saw it.
I just thought I'd share them right now. I have no idea what they're supposed to say, as this part of the story was scrapped and it's completely different now. It's going to be a visual novel, not drawn by me, and I'm still writing it, but it's still a cute little look at my past.
And here's a song that sums up these two.
(Hint: It's a song about twincest.)
Who knows, maybe I'll share more stuff I've done for this story. I've been working on it for seven years so I have quite a bit of it sitting around.
See you next time.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Well, it's official.
Hey folks. I know a few of you were curious about how my computer was, so here's the damage report:
PSU is shot, motherboard is dead, ram's gone, a few fans are dead, and some wires melted... Basically the PSU died, and that led to everything else crashing along with it. My friends have made some decent computer builds, but for what I'm used to running for my editing, I can't just make a quick cheap one. All of their recommended builds cost around $400.
I was not able to get back in time to back up any recent sketches or my original .PSDs of all of my Vexing pages. Naturally, this has me a little sad.
Hopefully this money I can scrap up enough cash to build a computer so I don't lose too much time. Fortunately I'm participating in a new website that can pull in a steady income, and at any rate, a new project always cheers me up. More details about that later. For now any support I can get would be great.
See you later.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
My Computer Died ;____;
WELL GUESS FREAKIN WHAT.
You'll notice I've been gone for a while, and have produced no updates. Let's just say, I had another week from hell.
First, I get sick over the weekend. And then, finally when I'm healthy decide to draw, my computer suddenly disconnects from the internet. "Okay," I say, and just restart the computer like everyone advises.
Then suddenly everything begins to fall apart and long story short, my computer is dead. :c All of my sketches, story notes, etc are GOOOOONE! /cry
I can still write reviews on my crappy old laptop, but if I want to do any graphic design stuff, it'll have to wait. No drawing, no coloring, no new banners for a while. :c Nothing pretty until I get a new desktop.
What's worse is that because I don't have a job, the only money I have coming in is the little amount I make from this blog. So yeah, I'm very unhappy.
A depressed panda is me. Will update later.
PS Finally over my cold, so I can actually have the energy to post this week. Of course this would happen when I feel better.
You'll notice I've been gone for a while, and have produced no updates. Let's just say, I had another week from hell.
First, I get sick over the weekend. And then, finally when I'm healthy decide to draw, my computer suddenly disconnects from the internet. "Okay," I say, and just restart the computer like everyone advises.
Then suddenly everything begins to fall apart and long story short, my computer is dead. :c All of my sketches, story notes, etc are GOOOOONE! /cry
I can still write reviews on my crappy old laptop, but if I want to do any graphic design stuff, it'll have to wait. No drawing, no coloring, no new banners for a while. :c Nothing pretty until I get a new desktop.
What's worse is that because I don't have a job, the only money I have coming in is the little amount I make from this blog. So yeah, I'm very unhappy.
A depressed panda is me. Will update later.
PS Finally over my cold, so I can actually have the energy to post this week. Of course this would happen when I feel better.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
New Blog! And Music for Vexing!
Posting my Time Hollow review later today guys. So just bare with me while I make this quick post.
Okay, it's not really music for Vexing, but it's music that I listen to while drawing to get me in the mood. I'm actually listening to this playlist right now. There isn't a whole lot of upbeat tracks you'll notice. That's because while there are lighthearted moments, the series itself is not what I'd classify as a comedy. It deals with some very dark subjects. Some subjects are very close to my heart and are still very tender.
The inspiration for Vexing mostly comes from a dream I had when I was younger. I had a dream that I met a prince, who rescued from a school that had me trapped. Later I would learn what this dream really meant, but in the moment, all I knew was that my dream prince was my "destined person" and that the current situation I was in was on the outside perfect and sunshiny, but it scared me to death. It's hard to explain unless you've had a dream like that, but I'm sure everyone has. Haha, I guess that means it's not at all hard to explain. I know what you're thinking, "But you keep saying the main character is a lesbian!" Well, that is really me just over simplifying everything. Who's to say Cosette is ever going to have a homosexual encounter? ... Well, ME, but you'll just have to wait. Cosette has her own psychology I've developed, and I'll just have to see where it takes me. Don't get me wrong, I definitely know where I want this story to go, but sometimes when you go to set it in stone, it takes a sharp turn somewhere and goes off in a different direction, and that path is beautiful and wonderful.
Combine all that with murder mysteries, fairytales, and a ton of other things, and you've got Vexing. Enjoy the music, because it has certainly helped me with the writing/drawing process.
Okay, it's not really music for Vexing, but it's music that I listen to while drawing to get me in the mood. I'm actually listening to this playlist right now. There isn't a whole lot of upbeat tracks you'll notice. That's because while there are lighthearted moments, the series itself is not what I'd classify as a comedy. It deals with some very dark subjects. Some subjects are very close to my heart and are still very tender.
The inspiration for Vexing mostly comes from a dream I had when I was younger. I had a dream that I met a prince, who rescued from a school that had me trapped. Later I would learn what this dream really meant, but in the moment, all I knew was that my dream prince was my "destined person" and that the current situation I was in was on the outside perfect and sunshiny, but it scared me to death. It's hard to explain unless you've had a dream like that, but I'm sure everyone has. Haha, I guess that means it's not at all hard to explain. I know what you're thinking, "But you keep saying the main character is a lesbian!" Well, that is really me just over simplifying everything. Who's to say Cosette is ever going to have a homosexual encounter? ... Well, ME, but you'll just have to wait. Cosette has her own psychology I've developed, and I'll just have to see where it takes me. Don't get me wrong, I definitely know where I want this story to go, but sometimes when you go to set it in stone, it takes a sharp turn somewhere and goes off in a different direction, and that path is beautiful and wonderful.
Combine all that with murder mysteries, fairytales, and a ton of other things, and you've got Vexing. Enjoy the music, because it has certainly helped me with the writing/drawing process.
OH YEAH. Also, I have a new blog! I keep getting questions about blogging, so I decided to just make a new blog to help people out with different things. Check it out! http://helpmyblogsucks.blogspot.com/
Anyways, see you later today for the Time Hollow review.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Vexing, Page 6
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| jesus thats emo christian |
Anywho. Vexing's back! I toyed around with a new inking style. But I may just keep to my same old same old.
Alright time to go to bed with me.
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