Sunday, April 3, 2011

Finding a Gem in a Compost Heap

So, I'm rooting through this old laptop, as it's the only thing that can still connect to the net. In all honesty, without my drawing software, I've been pretty depressed. I know I can always draw on paper, but seeing as I don't have a scanner, it feels different. I like sharing my art.

I tried asking my mother for a new computer, but she said "We can't afford that right now." What did she do not even a day later? She bought herself a brand new Droid X, worth hundreds of dollars. You can imagine that made me feel better.

At any rate, the only program I have is It's not horrible, but if you're used to Photoshop, it's a major step down. Even then, it lags something horrible because my mother left it out in the sun one too many times, so I can only use the standard Paint.

One of my friends asked for a banner done in Paint anyways, so I obliged them. As I went to save it, I noticed that the Pictures folder wasn't completely empty. Examining it, I found some YEARS old drawings I did for a different story. The quality surprised me-- while faces are COMPLETELY off, the bodies weren't exactly as bad. In fact, I think I got worse in drawing full bodies. Regardless, it was a call back to a time when I wasn't afraid of my skills, when I enjoyed drawing to the fullest. I didn't say I was the best, but I didn't hold back out of fear. It made me realize how far I've gone. I'm a much more timid person. I'm so worried about what others think of me. God, some of these drawings are bad, but at the same time, I can tell I had this naive pride in them. And a bit of it returned when I saw it.

I just thought I'd share them right now. I have no idea what they're supposed to say, as this part of the story was scrapped and it's completely different now. It's going to be a visual novel, not drawn by me, and I'm still writing it, but it's still a cute little look at my past.

And here's a song that sums up these two.
(Hint: It's a song about twincest.)

Who knows, maybe I'll share more stuff I've done for this story. I've been working on it for seven years so I have quite a bit of it sitting around.

See you next time.


  1. Hey, I know you might feel depressed and stuff... But have you tried GIMP? I know there's a lot of hate on it but it's more PS than paint.NET ever will be. You can use brushes and everything.
    It just depends on whether old laptops can handle it, I guess.

  2. So, it was a trap?

  3. Sort of. Not by the girl though.

    Doesn't really matter anymore because this part of the story was drastically changed.

  4. 7 years? Interest sparked.

  5. Just torrent all the software you need.

  6. Oh man, I know how it feels to not have programs that you're so use to using. Hope you're back up and running at full capacity soon.

  7. @Scott: It's not just that I don't have it, it's that I can't run it.

    Last night, I tried loading with my tablet. I'd make a stroke with the pen and it took 30 seconds for it to show up. fml.

  8. Those are pretty good. I know about having anaemic computers, as I was operating a slow Pentium 4 up until late 2010. It was a mess.

  9. I wish I could find old pictures and things on my computer; but I do this thing where I reformat my ass of at least once a year for every pc I've ever had.
    *Sigh* I envy you.

  10. yea im in need of a new computer as well